For weeks now I have been looking in the mirror and telling myself that I have not addressed the issue that was the reason for the blog and questioning when it will be that I break through the glass ceiling. However talking about matters one would refer to as very personally and making them public is still a huge hurdle to over come, besides how I to word the complexity that dwells within. Just blurting it out is just not my style and in the meantime the cauldron is boiling over.
Since the beginning of 2003, obstacles have cropped up all around, navigating from one health issue to another, all of which have left their mark upon my body like some road map that someday might be traverse by the hand of my lover.
She who remains unidentified except for when tensions need a release and she takes on the face of hundreds as images cycle through on the monitor. Yet this temporary reality has become more of a permanent situation as my partner for life has decided that any physical connection is no longer desired or wanted, while postings earlier in the year to CL bulletin board a request for a woman who to is seeking lover have remained unanswered.
In the meantime I continue to focus on my art and to develop a collection which would then be displayed in a gallery, generating a few sales, despite the current economic situation. For now it is the only thing that fills my heart with any kind of personal satisfaction and though it seems the only thing I live for, I continue yearning for the touch of another.
Thank you for your visit
E.A.
